Sexy Back

First Step is to Hope

2010-12-16T01:42:00.000+08:00

Have you ever have the feeling that you are going into a relationship and it will stay like this till the day you breath your last?

I do.

Have you ever felt that you can't see anything else after a break up with your love one, that you will just cease to exist and cease to feel anymore?

I do.

Most of the time, you do not know where life takes you. For me, i found my first true love in you. The first time in my 23 years that i ever felt this way for another person. My heart flutters when you are in the room. My eyes always rest on you when you are beside me. My ears long to hear your voice. My hands seeks to hold yours. My nose takes in your unique scent. My 5 senses are filled with your being. I know that first love are always the most memorable. Indeed, you are my first true love. I know i don't need a second or a third, cause it belongs to you, no matter what happens.

I know i am not your first. I know i may still not be your love. But i want you to know, the feelings you gave me are more than i can ever ask for. I gave you and surrendered my heart to you. You can treasure it, keep it, toy with it or just toss it out with the trash. But at least, i want you to know i love you with every thing i've got and everything i had. It might not be enough for you, but i am doing my best and will never stop doing my best..

For now,

My First Step is to Hope: Hope that as time passes, you will see how much i love you, how i gave my everything to just hope you can turn around and smile at me.

I am sleeping tonight with the image of your smiling face as i hug you to sleep.

The Truth About Loving You

2010-12-02T01:44:00.002+08:00

I guess i have a confession to make. I really didn't thought i would ever go down this road with you. I had my stable internship, my perfect education, an upcoming exchange to the place of my dreams, my loving date and a bunch of new friends that easily accepted me into their midst. You were just a good distraction, someone new to talk to, someone who shares similar interest in me. You were not even someone i would consider dating, which would usually be a mature adult who can carry out conversations about politics, economics and philosophy rather than movies, pop music and fashion trends.

But it all changed, one facebook message and one dinner later, i was a completely different person. It wasn't the looks, it wasn't the exciting new things you introduced me, it wasn't an impulsive nature on my part, it was love. Simply put, you unlocked the part of me that i thought was never there - The ability to LOVE.

I was so skeptical about loving someone, how could 2 person possibly want to spend all their waking time together, do things together, make commitment such as "death till us part", stupid promises that will never happen, that will never be realized.

But i was the stupid one, i didn't know love can do all this. From the day we met and talked in your school, i was drawn to you like a moth to a flame. You pulled me in, you changed me. You didn't slowly nudge me and push me in your way, you exploded into my world and took over everything. My life, my time, my feelings, my importantly my principles.

I never ever ever queued up for anyone for more than half hour if there was nothing in it for me, but one word from you, i stood 2 hours infront of the shop, just hoping i can get it to you in time.

I never ever spend lavishly on food, but for you, only the best spaghetti and best cut of beef could ever fill your mouth.

I never bought anyone presents out of impulse, but for you every single day is an occassion for me to gift you whatever you want.

I never had a proper adult conversation with you, i never had a good chat over coffee about the latest news on the Financial Times. With you, im always listening, always obeying, always loving.

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When people ask me why i love you, i was speechless. I didn't know what to say. Then they start filling me with answers? Is it the sex? No, i can easily get the sex elsewhere. Is it the company? No, i have better company that would actually listen to what i say. Is it an ego trip? No, cause if it is there are other higher mountains i can try to conquer.

So what is it? They start asking me the questions. Why are you so stupid to fall in love with someone so egoistics, insensitive, opportunistic, bigheaded, non committal? Why go back when time and time again, you are getting hurt, getting used, getting degraded?

I question myself too many times. Why do i always go back. But it was so simple to me now

I always thought movie lines were cheesy. "I will never let go" "You are everything to me"
But the reason why i love you is so simple "Cause There is no reason"

Stupid, ya i know. The Me from 4 months ago would never say such stuff. Loving without a reason. But have you ever love someone that much that any flaws can be overlooked, can be negated. Cause that is what is happening to me. I do not care what the world says, i just so simple.

So here is something you might hear in a movie, but these are words that meant the world to me:

"There is no reason to love. When you love someone, you love. It is a simple rule of the universe. It is like how the sun rises in east and sets in the west. It is like when the apples goes up, it must fall back down.

I love you, Dear. There is no reason why i do, it just is.

I want to spend the rest of my life with you, together and forever... till death do us part."

DnA

Missing you

2010-11-15T16:18:00.002+08:00

"Distance makes the heart grow fonder."

Some great guy said this. Or is it some lovesick guy that is trying to convince himself being away from his lover is actually advantageous? Just a form of consolation and a little self deceiving to make himself feel better about the whole situation.

Distance between 2 person can be defined in 2 ways. The physical distance between the 2 bodies, or it could also mean the distance between the 2 hearts. The former is easier to reconcile with. Electronic means such as an email, a phone call, Skype, MSN: so many forms of communication to link 2 physical bodies apart. Although some say that such electronic means as so impersonal, so cold and devoid of feelings, but to be able to just hear the warmth in the other voice, i think that is enough to satisfy each other need to connect and maintain what they had. I mean, come on, look at the movie "You've Got Mail!" Enemies in real life can even become lovers electronically.

However, distance between 2 hearts is something that is painful. Even if you are hugging each other to sleep every night, a morning kiss, holding hands in the cinema, but if your hearts are not in it together, then you are just following through the motions. Even more so than coldness of electronic communication, is the lack of the connection between the hearts.

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This is the 6th day. One more night and one more day before i can see you again. Just 6 days and i feel like experiencing the worst nightmare in the world. Calling each other daily, smsing each other is really just not enough for me. I need to hold you in my arms and tell you its okay. Its okay if the world treats you like shit, its okay if you are going through the hardest times of your life, its okay... as long as i am here. I have this impulse, an impulse to just take the next transport over to that dastardly place, pull you out of there and just run away together. Granted, it is just a imagination cause it will never work like that, but thats how much i want to protect you and just let you live your life in the best possible way, with the best possible companion.

Im suffering because you are suffering. Distance between our hearts have never been closer, and i am glad that you took me as your pillar of support. Im strong because you need me to be strong. Im happy because you need me; needing my willpower, my advice; needing the memories of us together to pull through this period.

Distance does indeed make the hearts grow fonder. Im missing you more and more. But i keep telling myself, that everytime i leave you, it is one day closer to the day i meet you again =)

I love you. Let DNA be the building blocks of life again.

dK

Welcome Back, Myself

2010-10-29T03:52:00.003+08:00

I shall start penning down my thoughts on this blog again. Hopefully this time round, i am sure of what i am typing.

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Objectivity versus Love: Are these 2 mutually exclusive?

Having Objectivity as a principle is essential and useful. Understand the needs and wants, a clear goal in mind, and the guidepost along the ways, would lead one to success in every endeavour. Without objectivity, we would just lose our way and end up doing stuff that we would not have done otherwise.

Love is blind. Whatever actions you do out of love, is out of pure faith. Love is not need, not a want, but more so having an inexplicable feeling to just lay your cards on the table and show it to the other person.

With such a stark difference in mindset, actions and behavior, can we still have these 2 at the same time? Can we be objective in love and can love make us more objective?

Myself: I think for me, love supersedes all objectivity. To the extent, love conditioned my objectivity. It is not a bad thing per se, in fact, it might be considered a good thing, for now i believe what i am doing is right and it is out of love. Call it mushy or stupid or being too caught up If i believe what i am doing is in my best benefit, and i willing accept all consequences, who are you to say i am not objective?

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Tonight, i finally found myself again.

It might not have been significantly different for you because it looks like it has been the same routine the whole week.

Me bringing you Koi, resting on your bed while you are watching an anime on the computer, and you sending me back home after.

But, i realize i am actually finding myself back the whole night.

The small talk at the start of the evening, the comfortable comaraderie, the easy relaxation and quiet bantering of words.

I lost all these feeling of comfort so many months ago. Finally, i find myself getting used to the fact i am loving you. It might have been a one-sided kind of comfortableness, but this routine has made me realize why i fell in love in the first place. The feeling of settling down into a routine, the feeling of having you there while i work, and the feeling that i when i turn my head around and look at you, you will always have that cheeky smile on your face, satisfied and feeling comfortable too.

I do not need or want much, but just to let you know that it is enough. Enough that you are giving me this routine to remember why i love someone in the first place.

And right now, i love you.

Love > Objectivity.

My First Ever Performance: Studio Wu Open House 2007

2007-09-30T10:37:00.000+08:00

Wow! Damn happy to be able to be part of this event. my virgin performance. *wink* haha well music died on us the first round. hehe but this doesn't stop the sad people from epressing themself! Given a second chance and i performed my heart out! Always kept the feet pointed i hope! lol well hoped i didn't performed too badly, loved every moment of it from the rehersals to the make up and to the final show! Let's hope i will be called again to perform but fingers crossed!

2007-06-25T23:11:00.000+08:00

Today went to Keck Seng Again... Lol so few people in Bryan and Taki classes. Dunno why today so so tired... after Bryan's class (which was damn cool btw) i was seriopsuly shagged out and out of breath. Cannot even do Taki's warm up properly. Haha, and as usual, i catch no balls in his class. I think next time i just admire him from outside, his steps are outrageously difficult, but damn damn nice when u see HIM do. That's about it.

But hey! When i went for Sheila's class, i was suddenly revitalised or something. I had so so much energy going on. it was "Like A Boy" by Ciara. When she said 4 counts of 8 today, i was like alright man! But den BOOM BOOM BOOM! damn the first count was like a killer already. In the end we ended up with like 2 counts of 8 and 2 counts+ lol! But i think i did damn well today(By My Standards) lol. Still far frm elites standard, but i can see myself today lol! SO SO happy.... Well guess i shan't type any longer... too shagged out to do that....

dAniel-Wish we could switch up the role...

2007-06-24T00:14:00.000+08:00

Well been a long time since i blogged. Feeling kind of ambivalent now. Haha, big word but nah.... it means paradoxical, eh means conflict.... ok i havinh mixed feelings now. well my life is all about dance now, now i live for it. But seems like so complicated now....

Been going to Keck Seng too much. till i feel a little dis-confident, ok unconfident. Is there such a word? All of it is Shelia's class, with all the elites in the class, i feel a little stuck below them, that there is not really much hope of catching up with them. Yep, i do feel myself improving, esp in Jazz but.... erm just really weird...

I started out at Simei, with no friends, den had lots of friends, Joey, Limin, Michelle, Chui Ying, and lots more, but now move to Keck Seng, i have little friends i guess, Karen, Alison.... hmm the price to pay for improving...??

dAniel - in a Ambivalent, Paradoxical, Conflicting Mood....

2007-06-06T21:43:00.000+08:00

Finally managed to go to Simei for lessons! Yeah! My home ground! So long never come back to this place. As usual, went for Pop Jazz class and MTV.

Pop Jazz class was really fun! Shelia's previous training has really paid off, i could really catch Taki steps in time and to my own style! Yeah Yeah! All the Jazz stuff has really strengthen me and make me a better dancer i think! hehe a bit BHB!

Well, tot i can come for Choon Hui class really really miss her. Turns out she cannot make it for 3 Weeks! Well Suman took over. hmm.... vv Shelia Style. But i like the sit ups were really fun! Lol i am a sadistic bastard man! Well nice nice chereo! Going to his class again next week.

Well guys that is the end of my rantings! Cya sOOn!

dAniel - 201 Post (DANCE ROX! sWu ROX!)

2007-04-30T23:54:00.000+08:00

Haha this is officially my 200th post. Rather amazing for someone who doesn't really blog that often. Well on to this weekend happenings! Yeah! LONG LONG Weekend! I took an OFF today lol!

Haha went for 3 Hrs of Dance today. Think i did rather well in J/k Pop and Adv Beg Latin Hip Hop. But erm, Taki class was a little bit tiring. He even hurt his knee again. Poor Him! Well i pulled my glutes muscles. Stupid Me.

latin hip hop was frweaking fun! Angela's Song! Think it is called Wan Mei Shi Jie or something. Finally managed to catch the groove. Lol!

Well that's all for this weekend. Tml is Labour Day. Thinking of getting that Motorola Maxx V6.

dAniel

2007-04-22T21:56:00.000+08:00

Well i guess all the dancing and music has sorta make me into some music-phile. Lol, now i switched on my comp and i cannot live without the sound of nice nice songs. Well let me group up this songs together into some form of genres and introduce you to them. Hmm let's see, we start off with the serenading catergory

Serenade
1. P.D.A. [We Just Don't Care] - John Legend
2. Way Back Into Love - Hugh Grant and Haley Bennett
3. All Out Of Love - Westlife Feat Delta Goodrem
4. Say Goodbye - Chris Brown
5. U Must Be - Gina Rene

Well guess the Say Goodbye is a little sad song but it has a nice tune anyway. Well if u can, try to get the Way Back Into Love by Hugh Grant and Drew Barrymore, their conversation within it is very funny Haha. Well on to the Pop Charts Category.

Pop
1. My Love - Justin Timberlake
2. Beautiful Liar - Beyonce Feat Shakira
3. Girlfriend -Avril Lavigne
4. Glamorous - Fergie
5. The Sweet Escape - Gwen Stefani

Haha, Damn there is only 5 slots for this or else i would have to put shit loads of Timbaland, Timberlake, Nelly Futardo, Beyonce songs, but guess i would have to be fair to the rest huh?
Tell me if u would like me to extend the Pop Chart List. next would be the Rock Section, but i only listen to Pop/Punk/Emo Rock so forgive my lack of scope

Pop/Punk/Emo Rock
1. How To Save A Life - The Fray
2. It's Not Over - Chris Daugherty
3. Put Your Money Where Your Mouth Is - Jet
4. This Ain't A Scene, It's An Arms Race - Fall Out Boy
5. Famous Last Words - My Chemical Romance

I guess i need help on this particular chart, it is a bit hard for me to come up with this song lists. Well, suggest to me some other things u would love to see up on this chart. Next My FAV, R&B.

R&B
1. Don't Matter - Akon
2. Like A Boy - Ciara
3. Get Me Bodied [Remix] - Beyonce
4. Long Way 2 Go - Cassie
5. Me & U - Cassie
6. Don't Love You No More (I'm Sorry) - Craig David
7. This is why I'm Hot - Mims
8. Ice Box - Omarion
9. All Good Things - Nelly Futardo
10. Upgrade U - Beyonce feat jay-Z

Shit i still have like tons to fill up this list but i guess i leave it for the next time hehE! I LOVE CASSIE! Haha don't u? Well this list will never run dry. Well the next category is songs i like Dancing to!

Dance
1. Crowded - Jeanie Ortego feat Papoose
2. Dance - Frankie J
3. Toma - Pitbull
4. Come Thru "Move" - DMX feat Busta Rhymes
5. Here I Come - Fergie

Haha, been dancing to these songs for a long time. Love it when the instructor turns on this songs! I get absolutely high on these music! Well next is my Fav Chart List!

Fav Songs!
1. GIVE IT TO ME - Timbaland Feat Nelly Futardo and Justin Timberlake
2. All Good Things - Nelly Futardo
3. My Love - Justin Timberlake
4. Upgrade U - Beyonce
5. So Sick - NeYo

Well this list goes on and on.... But DAMN! Love Give It To Me, i think those 3 are like the powerhouses on the chart. they have every rights to brag in that songs! Well that concludes this month chart update. FEEDBACK! Guys, u want bi weekly or monthly or wat? haha i need feedback!! And if u got any songs that you want to add in please tell me soon! Anyway i will be attending Interm Hip Hop tml! Help me! I want to Dance!

dAniel

2007-04-07T21:31:00.000+08:00

today went for adv beg classes for Fusion and Freestyle Hip Hop. Well, i dunno, but i guess i can say i am getting more confident in Hip Hop style. Just think that maybe i can reach that level that i see myself doing. True, i might not always get the beautiful lines and turns like some of the students, like Joey, but with only a few months of training, i can reach a little standard already. All i can say is that i am proud of myself.

well, feeling very emo these few days. well was talking to my old frens about making money, life in general. Do i want to just earn money, or do i want something meaningful to do in life. Well all my frens think, yah money is important. With money, i can do everything i like. Like dancing, i can spare the cash and time if i can make good investment and just let the money grow. yah, maybe that is what most people want. Me? Well, serious, if i can do something in life, something i want to do and earn money at the same time, why not? but just to sit there and let the money grow...... okay i am rambling, but i dunno, life is always so complicated

I teared again at a movie. Yah, call me emo or girly and stuff. But i dunno why, the feeling just struck chords with my heart. I dunno, when i watch a quiet movie like A Walk To Remember, my heart goes out to the star-crossed couple. Or maybe in Forrest Gump, a ignorant guy bumping through the toughest journey, LIFE. Well maybe i am just a person with too much pent up emotions and stuff.....

Well i guess i have done enough rambling for the day. Time to end off with this quote....

Love is always patient and kind. It is never jealous. Love is never boastful or conceited. It is never rude or selfish. It does not take offense and is not resentful.....

dAniel

2007-03-31T00:17:00.000+08:00

Well been a long time since i blogged about my life, well those idiotic gals in dance class force me too. Haha!

Well talking about dance! i've been having so much fun. Starting to see where i fit in and stuff. Thought my jazz was good, apparently not i guess. I am more inclined towards freestyle stuff. Fusing Popping, Hip Hop, Jazz. Guess i am better@ blurring lines between the style and not exactly fitting into the definite style group.
But got to know the people in class more and more espcially the gals. There are now so freindly to me, really feel the fun in class. But getting more crowded i guess. Joey is a good chat, really liked talking to her. haha, feels like talking to a little girl. But dun see her small small size, she better at dance than me.... okay maybe only in Jazz. Haha! And such a nice temper haah!

Well, NS sux i guess. I hating my life more and more. While all the rest are at Country T, i am in SG taking all the SK. Enough about NS!

Haha, Dance really enriched my life. Guess, i should have started earlier and not be so concerned about image and stuff. Now that i found friends and dance in my life, i am not going to give uP!

dANiel - dAncer

2007-03-19T00:19:00.001+08:00

When you dance, your purpose is not to get to a certain place on the floor.It's to enjoy each step along the way.
~ Wayne Dyer

2007-03-12T23:27:00.000+08:00

Me & U - Cassie

You've been waiting so long
I'm here to answer your call
I know that I shouldn't have had you waiting at all
I've been so busy, but I've been thinking about
what I wanna do with you

I know them other guys,
they been talking bout the way I do what I do
They heard I was good, they wanna see if it's true
They know you're the one I wanna give it to
I can see you want me too

Now, it's me and you
It's me and you, now
I've been waiting (Waiting)
Think I wanna make that move, now
Baby, tell me if you like it (Tell me if you like it)
It's me and you, now
I've been waiting
Think I wanna make that move, now
Baby, tell me how you like it

I was waiting for you to tell me you were ready
I know what to do, if only you would let me
As long as you're cool with it, I'll treat you right
Here is where you wanna be

I know them other guys,
they been talking bout the way I do what I do
They heard I was good, they wanna see if it's true
They know you're the one I wanna give it to
I can see you want me too

And now, it's me and you
It's me and you now (Baby, it's me and you)
I've been waiting
Think I wanna make that move, now
(Thinking bout making that move)
Baby, tell me if you like it (Tell me if you like it)
It's me and you, now (Uh-huh)I've been waiting (Hey)
Think I wanna make that move, now (Wanna make a move)
Baby, tell me how you like it (Yea)

Baby, I'll love you all the way down
Get cha right where you like it, I promise you'll like it (I swear)
Just relax and let me make that move (It's our secret thang)
Keep it between me and you

It's me and you, now (Oh Yea-a
I've been waiting
Think I wanna make that move, now (Move now)
Baby, tell me if you like (Tell me if you like it)
It's me and you, now (Yea)
I've been waiting
Think I wanna make that move, now (Gonna make a move now)
Baby, tell me how you like it

2007-03-01T22:27:00.000+08:00

Well i got to know this great person. Well, makes me laugh and all that. Feel really good to know this person. A gr8 friend thru and thru. Well hope that we can continue this friendship as long as possible. Just went out with Tong Wei that group of friends. felt so good to be together again, doing things together. Recall back to my SPDS days, training under the Military Police for NDP, i could never forget those days. The friendship we had were so immature, we tolled and sweated on those fields. How i hope i could live through it once again.

On a more official note, guess i would be very close to the flag now that i have been arrowed to do so many parades. I guess NDP too, and this time all on my own. Someone help me! Pride or SK?

dAniel - gr8 pErson in my life

2007-02-22T23:31:00.000+08:00

It takes an athlete to dance but an artist to be a dancer
Shanna La Fleur

2007-02-15T22:02:00.001+08:00

Great dancers are not great of their technique; they are great because of their passion.

Martha Graham

2007-02-04T15:29:00.000+08:00

Well i am a camera whore deep at heart so here are some of my pics!

dAniel - dancing awAy!

2007-01-21T00:56:00.002+08:00

It may sound wrong coming from me but is this guy just hot or wat? He can play soccer (She's the Man), basketball (Coach Carter) and he sure can dance! (Step Up)

dAniel

2007-01-15T21:41:00.000+08:00

I am getting more and more into the whole R&B and Hip Hop scene. It is starting to get real fun with classes. Loved all those Jazzy and Hip Hop feel. Few songs i would like to intro u guys to.

Ray J. feat Fat Joe - Keep Sweatin
Ciara feat Chamillionaire - Get Up
Drew Sidora - Till the Dawn
Nelly Futardo - No Hay Igual
Petey Pablo - Show Me The Money

Listen to these, real nice and dance steps just comes naturally to you.

dAniel - Bounce!

2007-01-07T22:13:00.000+08:00

Haha, Finally got to start my dance classes. Street Jazz! Pop Jazz! Hip HoP!
It was really fun. Warm up was a little hard to catch up and the rythnm requires me get back in step. But i guess i need to start somewhere. The instructor actually noticed people. They could actually tell i have some talent. and advice me to up my level. but i guess i want to master the basics before moving on. But loved the lessons man!

dAniel - Pop Street JaZz!

2007-01-02T01:13:00.000+08:00

Hey Guys, it is 2007 Guess This is a little huh? But nvm me. Happy 2007!

gUess this is the time i make me new year resolution.
I found someone special in life. I hoped to keep it this way as long as possible.
I found my purpose. I want to dance. This year i hope to start learning professionally.
I want to drive. Yes, that driving license is mine to get.
I want to ORD. 10 more months and counting. Just get it over and done with.
But most of all

I want to be Me.

dAniel - Let's start everything afresh.

2006-12-25T11:05:00.000+08:00

Merry Christmas and Happy New Year!

2006-12-22T23:10:00.000+08:00

Well, it is that time of the year when all of us do some reflections. But not today, today just do a monthly one. Ok here goes
In my job.! Commissioned liaO that feeling is really weird with people saluting me and everything. Even Warrant Officers too. But as usual i dun feel like i earn it. Now that i look back, how i wish infantry was my life. All the garang-ness i have lost it...it sorta sad but guess i gonna tough it out for the next year
ok i am going to end here and wallow in self pity.
Merry Christmas everyone. Really hope u guys can be happy!!!

dAniel - Merry Christmas.

2006-12-10T00:32:00.000+08:00

2006, 9th of December, 17:41

This is the Officer's Creed. This is my Creed.

I am an Officer of the Singapore Armed Forces
My duty is To Lead, To Excel, To Overcome

I lead my men by example
I answer for their training, morale and discipline

I must excel in everything i do
I serve with Pride, Honour and Integrity

I will overcome adversity with
Courage, Fortitude and Determination

I dedicate my LIFE to Singapore

2LT K O H F E N G Q U A N - t o l e a d, t o e x c e l, t o o v e r c o m e

2006-12-08T23:31:00.000+08:00

D - D A Y H - H O U R
O F F I C E R
2LT K O H F E N G Q U A N

2006-11-16T20:36:00.000+08:00

Oh no Oh Shit... HAve not been keeping an eye on my expenses.... no spending anymore this month... That means i must survive on 120 bucks for the rest of this month....

dAniel -- fQ is a PoOr BoY

2006-11-12T17:01:00.001+08:00

Finally it is just 4 more weeks to that day that i have been waiting for the whole year round! My comissioning! Haha.
Just watched "Step Up" Makes me wonder will i one day be the one dancing on that stage. It is really time for me to Step Up and get that dance on asap!

dAniel - Step Up

2006-10-13T18:17:00.000+08:00

Went to MOS last night "Tertiary Fling" First time there, it looks really really good and it was really really fun! Hope i would have any chance to go there....

2006-09-27T16:56:00.000+08:00

Evil is a man.
Recently, i have been having all these vivid dreams. Really really weird out. I am like seeing werewolves, vampires, angels and all those stuff. A bit like some apocalyse type of stuff. Dunno what it means. It is so real that it even scares the hell out of me. And i am like a human in that dream. Trying to fend off them with each side coming after me, like i have something they want. It is definitely getting weirder... Hope i can figure out what it means. Might be just some story that i read that make me have this kinda dreams....

dAniel - Evil is a Man

2006-09-17T17:07:00.000+08:00

Been configuring my iPod the whole weekend. Really excited with the new functions and everything. Spent most my time looking through the net on my future career choice whether i would like it and whether is there any development to look out for. Been reading a lot to convince myself of the choices i make in my life. This point of my life is confusing, dealing a lot with identity crisis, dunno where to go, who am i, what defines me..... had a lot of time to think through during my life in camp....

dAniel - Confused....Identity Crisis, Perhaps this is not who i am....

2006-09-03T21:34:00.000+08:00

Well, went to COMEX the day before. Finally got the iPod that i have always wanted. Well, now that is a big step to my materialistic life. I intend to be a high ended high maintainance type of guy. Haha. Anyway went out with that grp of Zhu Peng Gou You again. Haha. Had Kenny Rogers at Marina sQuare. First time i got served instead of queuing up for food. But guess that is how they earn their service charge and stuffs. Watched the midnight show of "the Devil wears PRADA", it was good. didn't really expect that the fashion industry was like that. To think that i almost went for it. Anyway took Night Rider home after that. It lasted for more than 1.5 hrs. WheW! One of the longest bus ride that i took. Well guess that ends my weekend b4 hell in Murai Camp again....

dAniel - iPod Video Gen V

2006-08-24T21:33:00.000+08:00

Well, Night's Out today so decided to blog a bit. Well, 2 weeks at Pasir Laba Camp for some Intelligence course. Well, Cadets in Specialists Camp the feeling was so weird. Haha. Esp a ARMY camp. Anyway, the intel course was just info overload. Though i from OCS, but i nvr went through section movement, platoon movement and all those shit. And now, I have to learn the Battle Procedure for Division? OMG, like how deep is that and to make it worse, Intelligence. Brain Dead man. However, cannot complain much. Finally, i am like getting the glimpse into the ARMY life i have long looked forward too.

Well, on a lighter note, SMU accepted me! Back into their DDP programme, finally something that i look forward to in say about 2 years time!

dAniel - IMINT

2006-08-21T00:08:00.000+08:00

6 Mths has past... 3 more to go. Really looking forward for this to end man. The golden bar...

Anyway I have fallen in love with lotsa things lately, really beginning to embrace my true self.

dAniel -- SexY BacK

2006-07-08T00:23:00.000+08:00

I know this is a little late... but i was totally torn.... England is out.... OMG. To think they were already at quarters and haiz. I am really beginning to hate Portugal's C. Ronaldo.... Fuc* off man! Go to Real.... Dun even act as if you are still pally with rooney. Ok i dun noe what to say now... Just damn sad

dANiel

2006-06-25T03:25:00.000+08:00

Ok so World Cup fever has really set iN! I am a fanatic about the global game man! Watching Soccer at 9 12 3AM was never my type but now i am up all night watching it. So i guess you all wanted to hear who i support. Quite obvious lar... England! Too bad my favc Owen has left due to injury, but wth, i think the English has a lot of chance this year! Joe Cole was simply fantastic, and there are more ok let's name them! Rooney, Crouch, Beckham, Gerrad, Lampard, A. Cole, Ferdinand..... Ok i am almost listing the whole team. I am also rooting for Germany too. I think they played an amazing opening match! Lahm was damn good. I like Ballack toO! Still got Brazil. Now KakA is my fav! Still got still got! Italy! They got Nesta. Portugal!- C. Ronaldo, Figo, Deco....! also also.......................... Okay fine i can go on and on! But ultimately, this is my life now! Watching World Cup!. In the end, there is still onl=i one tEam for me and that is England! England for the World CuP! - dAnieL

2006-06-01T00:06:00.000+08:00

NTU OR SMU?
NTU OR SMU?
NTU OR SMU?
NTU OR SMU?
NTU OR SMU?
NTU OR SMU?
NTU OR SMU?

2006-05-26T22:43:00.000+08:00

It has been eons since i last blogged. Having a really big writer's block over this period of time. Anyway back to present, currently in AFS, having my vocation training. Since it haven start yet, I am quite slack. Nothing to do. Been given a week off. So making full use of it.

Okay so American Idol is finally over, Taylor won. Strange, i did not exactly like this season. Cannot deny it was rather mundane. Although Chris and Kat was good, but they were no where near the brillance of Clay Aiken, Kelly Clarkson or Carrie Underwood. Looking through my list now, i have a few songs that i have taken a liking to.

Photograph by Nickelback
A Moment Like This by Kelly Clarkson
Bad Day and Jimmy Gets High by Daniel Powter
Amazing by Westlife.

Okay shall attempt to update as frequently as possible. In the mean time please have fin with my Pets.!

dAniel -- Warriors of the Sky

2006-04-23T02:00:00.000+08:00

5 Weeks into OCS. I've changed... a lot. What it put me through, the pain, the heartaches, the stress... Not stemming from the training. But instead from myself. I blame myself for my incompetencies, my worthlessness... Life is just a path of torture and sadness. Try to find a bright way out... Never look back and regret what has passed. Look forward to times of fun. That is what i will attempt to do... But have a feeling that i will fail terribly in it.........

dAniel -- My Sword Hath No Honor. MSHNH......

2006-03-19T23:44:00.000+08:00

Going into OCS tml.... 3 Week confinement...Longest i have been away from home
Feeling really homesick now already...

dAniel -- OCS Calibre but OCS quality?

2006-03-18T00:29:00.000+08:00

OCS here i come

dAniel -- OCS

2006-03-16T00:27:00.000+08:00

I am like really freaked out right now...! Do i look GAY or something?
Just today, i was hit on by 2 guys at 2 Clinics.

Incident 1 - PolyClinic
I went there cause i dun have to pay. For my cough and cold. Den i was napping away when i was waiting for my turn (U noe how long it can get). Then i feel some thing on my shoulders and it felt warm. I woke up and there was this guy like 20 something, really buff guy, PUTTING A JACKET ON ME. I was like...."Eh, excuse me, do i know you or something? Why are you giving me your jacket?" He said i looked really cold. OMG! Den he started chatting me up and i couldn't get away....I was like "Shit" And his topics were like do you have a girlfriend, are u serving NS?, Where do you live?, I managed to cover up by giving him some false information... Thank God for the Doctor, and he wasn;t there when i came back out.... Btw, He was really handsome looking and don;t look delusional at all. Think he was called Steven....

Incident 2 - Clinic
After my free polyclinic, i went on to the clinic nearby for check up on my ingrown toenail. This time, same thing. I was napping, waiting for my turn. Then i felt a arm sling over my shoulders, and a voice. "U all right?" This time, was another guy. God this guy look very poseurish. Think he look like some mediacorp artiste or something. He had like a unkempt look going. OMG again! He was in SHOCKING PINK TIGHT TEE! I also balked at it. Then came the conversation. I was like WTH. Thank god he was not that pushy or anything. I almost wanted to run away, and when he ask for my number, i sort of gave him the wrong one. HAHA. Throughout the whole thingy, he was very touchy. Putting his hand on my lap, across my shoulder. E.....!!!!!! And i went in for my consultation. He was still there when i finish, and he already finish his consultation before me.... I asked him politely like why is he still here? He replied that he liked my company and wanted to chat more. I immediately told him that i need to rush home. And he still walk me to the Bus Stop........ Thank God my bus came quickly, or else he would want to talk more......THink his name was Derek....

God, help me.... DO i look too easy or what....

dAniel -- SERIOUSLY TRAUMATISED....

2006-03-12T22:19:00.000+08:00

Finally BMT phase has finished. I am so glad. Dun noe where i am headed but let's just hope for the best. Get into OCS?? Haha dunno

Scholarship and Uni applications are such an ass......... My choice??
BBA(Hons) & BEng (Mechanical) DDP at NUS
BEng (Aero) at NTU
BBM & BA DDP at SMU

dAniel -- Uni

2006-02-25T21:57:00.000+08:00

i am back from SITEST! So damn happy.
But also so damn sad. Results day is coming, seriously dunno whether i am going to do well or not... Just hope for the best keep myself busy and try to not worry so much.
Read Swee Keat blog, i am rather pissed off with his comments, but i am not condemming him here, it is everyone's perogative to say what they want to say on their blog. True, yah some gays are really the flammboyant kind that people cannot accept. But just as there are different types of apples (I know, very bad analogy) there are different type of gays. I believe that the problem here is not about guys and guys being together, but more about the stereotypical views, the insular and deeply-seated opinions that people form in their mind. Some might argue that they do not stereotpye, but touch your heart here, did you or did you not generalise all gays to be the dancing, happy-go-lucky type of drag queens. Think here! Who would be in their right mind would want to be someone hated by majority of the society? Attention Seeking, u would say, but there are a fucking 1000 ways out there to seek attention.

Okay i need to rest over here. Guys review your view towards gays, do you really hate them, or is it a deep-seated thought that has been passed on by society to you?

dAniel -- Fucking scared of results....

Brokeback Mountain

2006-02-05T18:05:00.000+08:00

Heard about this movie. Watch it, be open dun be repulsed by the scene. The power of love is so strong that it transcend all categorisation of love. Love between 2 men. Ultimate love there can be...

dAniel -- "... I wish i knew how to quit you"

Sad life...

2006-02-05T18:03:00.000+08:00

This is so damn sad man.... Booking in again todaY and for the next 13 days i will be locked in that miserable place... NS life is so damn bored. Now i am re-evaluating my option for a military career agAin...

dAniel - Booking-in in another 1hr and 10mins

Back again

2006-01-29T01:27:00.000+08:00

Really dun noe why but i have being suffering from health problems all through BMT. First was high fever of 38.0 i managed to struggle through without reporting sick. For a few days later i was weak like mad. Den my blisters problems started. My Section mates were freaked out by the amount of pus and blood on my hands. Den my ingrown toenail started acting up. More recently, i got food posioning. I gave up in the end and got Attend B on my last day b4 book out. Thank god! Last day SOC and tekan were so siong. SO glad i escape that.

Had reunion dinner. Have to sit though dinner listening to my cousin brag about his so call "Higher than the rest" Commando Training. Haha... He sound like a cock saying that. Can't stand it sometimes. But being the ever polite and good natured guy that i am i just let him rant and inject some comments here and den. Haha!! Anyway, found out that my elder cousin who O.R.D. is a FS. haha didn;t know that, he gave me lots of tips on how to clear SOC and improve my IPPT!

Okay, so NS life is not that bad. At least i am adjusting well. Just wish i will not get any more illness. Here wishing all a Happy Chinese New Year!

dAniel -- Happy Chinese New Year

A Thousand Miles

2006-01-29T01:21:00.000+08:00

Okay fell in love with this song by Vanessa Carlton, for those who are bored with the lyrics. i have added another post below...

A Thousand Miles - Vanessa Carlton

Making my way down town
Walking fast
Faces pass
And I'm home bound

Staring blankly ahead
Just making my way
Making a way
Through the crowd

And I need you
And I miss you
And now I wonder
If I could fall
Into the sky
Do you think time
Would pass me by
Cause you know I'd walk a thousand miles
If I could just see you... tonight

It's always times like these
When I think of you
And I wonder
If you ever think of me

Cause everything's so wrong
And I don't belong
Living in Your precious memory
Cause I need you

And I miss you
And now I wonder
If I could fallInto the sky
Do you think time
Would pass me by,oh
Cause you know I'd walk a thousand miles
If I could just see you... tonight

And I, I don't wanna let you know
I, I drown in your memory
I,I don't wanna let this go
I, I've fallen...

Making my way down town
Walking fast
Faces pass
And I'm home bound
Staring blankly ahead

Making my way
Making a way
Through the crowd

And I still need you
And I still miss you
And now I wonder
If I could fall into the sky
Do you think time, would pass us by
Cause you kow I'd walk a thousand miles
If I could just see you...If I could fall into the sky
Do you think time would pass me by
Cause you know I'd walk a thousand miles
If I could just see you...If I could just hold you... tonight

dAniel - A Thousand Miles

Book Out

2006-01-28T01:52:00.000+08:00

Freaking tired..........

dAniel -- Screwed up

....

2006-01-10T00:30:00.000+08:00

First few days of NS life.... Nothing and i mean nothing compared to NCC. The standard was just different, not low, but just not the same. Haiz... So now i in J04/S03/B13. Not supposed to disclose such infomation but i guess no one going to decipher it unless they been thru there??
Now highlighting some points. A LOT and i mean a LOT of familiar faces. I have actually 5 VJ people in my bunk! Haha! Settling in quite easily getting into the rountine very fast. Today being the first book out day, naturally a bit slack i think.
These first few days were quite slack lar. Seriously. We never actually kenna tio owned or anything just running here and there and learning some stuff that i learned b4. But i got tio kan a few times lar. First of all i am the platoon food I/C. Sianz... everytime got situations and i always am the last to eat. Second i tio Ground Floor 2 I/C which have to clean up a fucking large area ard the company line.

But i guess i just have to deal with it as it comes, don't I?

dAniel -- ?? FQ KOH

NS

2006-01-05T22:10:00.000+08:00

Feeling rather ambivalent now.... Haiz... NS life i sorta look forward to yet, but ya know, i sorta dun want to go, ya know? Haiz.... Okay better get my idea straight.....

OK!!! I am going to NS, i want to make OCS!! Here we go again!

dAniel -- This is the process where BOYS bEcome MEN and MEN become HEROS!!!!!!!!

New Year Celebrations

2006-01-02T01:03:00.000+08:00

New Year Celebrations
-It is the start of the new year! 2006! Ok so where did i go? Clark Quay! Well it wasn't my intention. I wanted to go esplanade or at least a club and dance and grope people. Well my class settled for a pub and soccer... Haiz, WTF.... anyway i managed to join some like-minded people near the bridge where people were congregating. Countdown started and we were like screaming and spraying foam on each other. And something amazing happened... a HOT HOT and i mean HOT Caucasian girl of my age came up and hug me and gave me a kiss on the cheek! HOTZZZZZZ!!! dun believe me ask Hock... he glimpse it! Anyway it was so freaking fun.... At the end of the day left me swee jin han ron and via. and we played truth or truth haha!!
Really happy after that! Glad to have spent my last hours of 2005 with my best classmates!!

Happy New Year everyone!

dAniel -- 2006

Entry

2005-12-29T12:28:00.000+08:00

Ok have lotsa things to blog about...

1) Christmas Parties
Loved the both that i went to... My JC frenz one and my ex-4E people. My JC class people were more concerned with football and TV but the food was good and it was really nice to hear them crap about stuff once again... Dunno when i am going to see those guys together again...Good luck guys!
My ex class one were all about games and drinks. We had so much fun playing all those idoitic games and drinking to our heart's content. It was so so much fun. We screamed and we laughed... Haha

2) Pilot Testing
So test was only like 3+ hrs, not 5 thank good. Haha think i did ok, but i screwed up the 3 tasks at the same time one! Haha, but thank god i managed to score for the square sqaure stuffs... i got 5-4-5 haha great achievement when i heard the rest only got like 1-1-1. Really hope i can pass this test man. Really looking to a career in military...

3) NCC gathering
Cannot say it was really successful, cause only got 7. But i got to meet Hubert Hugh and Kent finally like from so long ago. Went to V8 Cafe at Parco Bugis Junction. Ok cafe, quite cheap the food. We talked a lot about the mpending NS days... and recollecting our fond memories of our NCC days... Den we went to watch a movie. Narnia

4) The Chronicles of Narnia "The Lion, The Witch And The Wadrobe"
Watched it twice but it is still very nice... Haha, laughed and got scared all over again. Really great movie, the effect was great and the Lion was really majestic. BTW, the grown up Peter and Lucy are so dam-n! hot!!!!...haha

This ends the blog entry
dAniel -- ME

Finally

2005-12-22T23:14:00.000+08:00

Ok Finally!! my com is fixed!! Sorry for not updating guys... Com crashed!!
Anyway... Wow Wow Wow! This is great! 2 parties in a row On Eve and on Christmas!!
Rwealli looking forward to it!!

God Must Have Spent A Little More Time On You - NSYNC

2005-12-12T01:03:00.000+08:00

Can this be true
Tell me can this be real
How can i put into words what i feel
My life was complete
I thought i was whole
why do i feel like i'm losing control

Never thought that love could feel like this
and you changed my world with just one kiss
How can it be that right here with me
theres an angelits a miracle

CHORUS
Your love is like a river
Peaceful and deep
Your soul is like a secret that i never could keep
when i look into your eyes
I know that it's true
god must have spent a little more time on you

In all of creation all things great and small
you are the one that surpasses them all
more precious then any diamond or pearl
they broke the mold when you came in this world

And i'm trying hard to figure out just how i ever did without
the warmth of your smilethe heart of a child
thats deep insideleaves me purified

CHORUS
Your love is like a river
Peaceful and deep
Your soul is like a secret that i never could keep
when i look into your eyesI know that it's true
god must have spent a little more time on you

Never thought that love could feel like this
and you changed my world with just one kiss
How can it be that right here with me
theres an angelits a miracle

CHORUS
Your love is like a river
Peaceful and deep
Your soul is like a secret that i never could keep
when i look into your eyesI know that it's true
god must have spent a little more time on you

A feeling of emptiness...

2005-12-04T00:48:00.000+08:00

So the curtain has been drawn, the props has been removes, and another scene is about to unveil... Lights, Cameras, Action!

Here we go again...saying oh shit again... up and down the same old path, just a few more decades and we'll be thru.. (Army Cheer)

Ok, prom officially marks the end of my JC life, and just a few hours after prom, i discovered myself again, Party Animal.... I dun need the Vodka to keep it into my system. I get high on atmosphere. Dancing through the night, dun even feel like stopping, until the music ends... 2 hrs of dance is not enough.... Guess most people saw a new me last night, not as a mugger now, but as a "Chiong-ster" watever tat means.... Stereotypying again....

Feeling kinda lost, everyone going their own ways.... Trying to make plans to contact.. Soccer? Christmas Party? Are they going to be successful? Maybe yes in this month.... Soccer after BMT?...Nah, sorry family dinner.... GF waiting for me... Got other frenz ask me liaO... Sorry....

04S42... The class tat takes fun seriously! So glad that i changed my Combination and came to this class....

Ok stop being so pesstismistic again, dAniel... Be happy... Finally you are going to be 18! Yeah!!
This month i am going to re-invent myself. Talk less, think more, play more, grow up more...

dAniel -- PaRty animAL....

POp

2005-11-29T22:45:00.000+08:00

Love this song i am dancing to it now....!!!

Pop - NSYNC

Sick and tired of hearing all these people talk about
What's the deal with this pop life and when is it gonna fade out
The thing you got to realize, what we doing is not a trend
We got the gift of melody, we gonna bring it 'til the end

It doesn't matter,
'bout the car I drive or what I wear around my neck
All that matters, is that you recognize that its just about respect
It doesn't matter, about the clothes I wear and where I go and why
All that matters, is that you get hyped cuz we'll do it to you every time (come on now)

Do you ever wonder why, this music gets you high?
It takes you on a ride, feel it when your body starts to rock
(your body starts to rock)
Baby you cant stop (you can't stop),
and the music's all you got, come on nowT
his must be, pop

Dirty pop, that you can't stop
I know you like this dirty pop
This must be, pop

Now, why you wanna try to classify the type of thing we do
Cause were just fine doin what we like, can we say the same for you
Tired of feelin all around me animosity
Just worry about trust cause
I'ma get mine, people can't you see

It doesn't matter, 'bout the car I drive or the ice around my neck
All that matters,
is that you recognize that its just about respect (oh)
It doesn't matter, about the clothes I wear or where I go and why
All that matters, is that you get hyped cuz we'll give it to you every time (come on)

Do you ever wonder why, this music gets you high?
It takes you on a ride, feel it when your body starts to rock
(your body starts to rock)
Baby you cant stop (you can't stop),
and the music's all you got, come on nowT
his must be, pop

LOVE THIS SONG MAN!!!

dAniel !!

First time...

2005-11-23T15:30:00.000+08:00

Today was my first night to ever stay up so late just to watcha a soccer match. Man Utd Vs Villareal. Could say i was quite disppointed with both their performances. Lots of misses, lack of support of other team mates, all in all a very "Un-united Man Utd".... Quite sad for them actually, considering this is their first match since Keano resigned last friday..... Too bad Jin HAn and Ron....

Piece of my mind...

2005-11-20T01:57:00.000+08:00

After reading BenL post, i have to say something. Watever he is propagating about harry and Hermione are wrong (Please do not ake any offence, Ben). As a highly fanatic Harry Potter fan, i feel it is my duty to "correct" people perception about the couples in the story. yah, i have to agree Ron looks really sucky in the show and Hermione and Harry looks just right but all in all they will know end up together... So here how it goes in the story about the trio realtionship..

Book 1 - The Philosopher's Stone (UK Version- Bloomsbury)
Harry and Ron hated Hermione,
They became good friends at the end

Book 2 - The Chamber of Secrets
Not much propagation of realtionship factor, though Ginny Weasley is very taken by Harry

Book 3 - Prisoner of Azkaban
First Low Point in Ron and Hermione relataionship over the rat Scabbers A.K.A Peter Pettigrew
First encounter with Cho Chang by Harry. In match of Ravenclaw against Gryffindor (Both played Seekers)

Book 4 - The Goblet of Fire
Second Low Point in Ron and Hermione relationship over Viktor Krum
Hermione and Krum remain good friends in the end, they still write to each other
Harry rejected by Cho over Cedric Diggory
Padma Patil (Ravenclaw, not Gryffindor) went to ball with Ron
FYI, Fleur Delacour went to the Ball with Roger Davis of Ravenclaw
MISUNDERSTOOD relationship between Harry and Hermione due to Rita Skeeter leading to Krum questioning Harry

Book 5 - The Order of the Phoenix
Low point between Harry and Cho due to misunderstood relationship between Harry and Hermione, In addition, due to fiasco of Dumberdore's Army

Book 6 - The Half-Blood Prince
Misunderstanding between Ron and Hermione due to
#1 - Ginny told Ron the Hermione snogged Krum
#2 - Quidditch misunderstanding
#3 - Ron and Lavender
#4 - Hermione went to Slughorn's party with Cormac McLaggen
Ron and Hermione were together in the end
Harry was jealous of Ginny and Dean Thomas
Harry went to Christmas party with Luna Lovegood
Harry kissed Ginny at the celebration of Quidditch Finals
Harry broke off with Ginny at Dumblerdore's funeral
BTW, Fleur Delacour was engaged to Bill Weasly

Above are the small summaries of the Trio's relationships, for more information, please consult me...
And once again, please do not take offence at my comments, all are harmless and not critsing

dAniel -- HP Fanatic (Viktor and Hermione Rox)

Over..

2005-11-19T01:27:00.000+08:00

Ok new blog new feel....

Now it is just close to over my 12 years of pre uni education....

Now talk abt the "Talk" of the town Harry Potter and the Goblet of Fire

No surprises there for my fav actor and actress right haha! I think Viktor and Hermione looks so good together! Well the storyline was close to the correct one, at least the closest out of the 4 movies. But this undoubtly the best out of the 4, the graphics, the sound effect, it was all there.... Love the first and second task! The third task could be more exciting... The left out the Shimmering Cloud, The Sphinx, The Acromantula, The Skwerts (haha, lucky for harry potter).... and so much more....ok enough about the movie, anyone wants a detailed storyline please consult me personally, i read the books cover to cover at least 10 times over...

Went to Glutton Square with the class and sat down to talk, just some light conversation and took us to 11.30 pm haha!! Love my class, lets keep in touch even after we parted our ways in school....

dAniel - Viktor-fied, Hermione-fied! VH Rox!

>......

2005-10-23T01:50:00.000+08:00

Yah pRetty bored... Left with AJC Chem Paper 2 and 3 , TJC physics....ZzZz.... Ok dun whack my sleep pattern liao... go sleep... ok i am just rambling and lying... i think i go mug for another 30 mins??......

dAniel -- Scared Worried...

.....

2005-10-18T00:20:00.000+08:00

Rest Rest... Ok Mugging for another 1 more hour and i can sleep ETA to mug time: 1/2 hr

Mourning

2005-10-16T21:15:00.000+08:00

Lost my beloved purple pencil today.... Feel so depressed....Love u always Pencil, i will always remember the time i bit u at the head, shake ur body....

D Day on 060106 1545 not commando, but looking forward to it....o rshld i say looking forward when A level ends...

dAniel -- GOAL! = Go A-Levels!

Self-Evaluation

2005-10-10T19:52:00.000+08:00

It is time for some self-evaluation today, a week or so after i proclaim to change over a new leaf. Today, heard from Via that some people say i mug so hard but in the end, not at the front of the pack or getting the grade i am suppose to get. This sorta imply that, and i infer that people feel i am not clever enough or to put it negatively, plain stupid.
Seriously though i am a little hurt abt the comment, i am not that angry as they think i will be. I remember since the end of sec3, when i have a L1R5 score of 29, i started my mugging sequence, day in day out, unless when i am away or in camp, i never stop studying. In the end i improved, but at the cost of my sec 4 life. Den when i got my score of 9 for O-levels, some of the people started wondering... Is that guy so dumb? He did the TYS from cover to cover at least twice and he is not even in the top 3 of the class. Haha..... That pt in time was my lowest... remembered that post O levels celebrations were not that great. When i reached JC, i decided to change, joined the House Comm, reached home at around 11 each night, but when i recieved the first common test for Maths, i scored miserably. It was like deja vu all over again, i started mugging again so that is what people see me now...
After some personal evaluation, i managed to list down some factors that contribute to this phenomenum of not achieving the grades:
1) Inefficient Studying Methods
2) Unhealthy Studying Methods
3) Not understanding
4) Mugging, not studying
5) Or just plain stupid....

I believed to be the last factor all along actually. Do you think i never once felt fustrated with my results? Of course i do, but i think hardworkingness has got me this far, i know it can't take me further, but that is all i know how to study and that is what i am going to do for all the stuff that i do... Who cares abt others opinions, i am entitled to do as i like and do as i deem pleased....!!! I am behind myself all the way! The others can just F*** OFF! Haha! Yeah!

dAniel -- I love being myself!

....Life

2005-10-09T02:06:00.000+08:00

Life is so boring nowadays.... I know i shld not be blogging. But who cares.... I think u people out there want me to blog so i have less time to mug right... Dun worry... I am still mugging now at 2 am in the morning... So watch out people! Ultimate mugging is going on. Ok i was just joking! i not mugging now. Not a lot of achievement today, Only managed Case Studies, GP Compre and Physics N2004 P1 & P2.

I read sWee post...People blog like their life and thoughts about stuff. I blog too, just that my life is mugging and stuff. I think it is damn sad. My only outlet of entertainment is only TV, maybe i shld do something. Like maybe go for the dance lessons i am meaning to go since secondary school. Always so scared people will say that dancing is so gay effiminate and or that. But i think i once i mastered some techniques, maybe that will stop all the teasing??.....

dAniel - Dancing thru' life

Bored 2

2005-10-03T01:17:00.000+08:00

Really bored today... Did not even touvh the comp man. Woke up at 12 and relax till 2 den started doing Specimen Paper 1 i actually took like 5 hrs to complete it... But heck care... who's counting. Anyway did not do much, went to grannie's house and had dinner. Cousin from HCJC, Roger, told me that people from HC also nb do well for paper kinda relieved... Anyway got down to watching FF7 all over again. Had to explain to my Non RPG gamers cousins what it was all abt. ANyway went home and watched TV again This time 2 Vampire shows. Twin Effect and My Date with A Vampire... Really loved those shows. I like Vampires a lot out of all fantasy characters. Kinda erotic when they suck people's blood, if you know what i mean... Haha...
Ok Think i will go to sleep soon, and start preparing to mug for Chemistry tml.... Good Luck!!

dAniel -- September has ended, time to burst your dreams and get back to reality people...

2005-10-02T01:44:00.000+08:00

Was feeling really bored today...So decided to start revision and do some work... ReAlly dun noe where to start from so decided that i shld finish all my homework first... Did finished the Maths Nov 2004 papers and the Specimen Paper 2. Continued with Physics Nov 2003 papers and the DRQs for econs... Mmm COnsidering finishing the Chemistry stuff for revision tml... oh well, TV and Mugging are my life these few days i think.....

dAniel -- I was bored!

......sAd

2005-09-28T15:06:00.001+08:00

Just listen to Green Day's album all over again... Really love the song "Wake me up when September ends" Got wathc the MTV? It was real sad... This guy enlist for army, she though his girl would be the one that understand him, but turns out his girl did not... The scene ends with teh guy falling down in the battleground and the girl crying in the living room

Wake me up when September Ends -- Green Day

Summer has come and passed
The innocent can never last
wake me up when september ends

like my fathers come to pass
seven years has gone so fas
twake me up when september ends

here comes the rain again
falling from the stars
drenched in my pain again
becoming who we are

as my memory rests
but never forgets what I lost
wake me up when september ends

summer has come and passed
the innocent can never last
wake me up when september ends

ring out the bells again
like we did when spring began
wake me up when september ends

here comes the rain again
falling from the stars
drenched in my pain again
becoming who we are

as my memory rests
but never forgets what I lost
wake me up when september ends

Summer has come and passed
The innocent can never last
wake me up when september ends

like my fathers come to pass
seven years has gone so fast
wake me up when september ends
wake me up when september ends
wake me up when september ends

dAniel -- September is ending now.....time to wake up

Alexander the Great

2005-09-27T23:49:00.000+08:00

Just finished watching today, after watching the movie, i have lotsa afterthoughts, maybe i share it with you guys here.... Alexander XIII, the greatest alexander by far, Son of Zeus and Olympias the Soceress. He conquered Asia and Europe, at the age of just 25. His dream was the mixing of races, Babylon being the centre of the world... However, he pushed his dreams too much, that in the end, after he died, the vast empire of his ursurped by his generals....

I admire for chasing his dreams, but to chase for a dream so great, he had lost his life, his beloved male lover, and everything that he loves.... Is that suppose to be the way? Are chasing dreams wrong that God should punish the one that does that? In Alexander case, he was punished by losing everything he owned, he chased his dreams was at the height of his life and eveything came tumbling down, In his course, he betrayed his male loves, slaughtered the subjects that he trusted the most, he become disillusioned.....Is that suppose to be the way things work out...?

Personally, i admire his spirit, he chased his dreams and almost succeded. And in my opinion, he had conquered death in the most abstarct sense, His name lives in people heart and when people look back at Greece and Macdeonia, they will remember Alexander amongst the older gods like Hercules, Achilles.

Abt myself, i am cowardy i guess, my dream is too be myself.... But i know that being myself would hurt a lot of people in the process. But shld i be like Alexander and pursue my dreams, ignoring others in my life, the ones that i love and i care....?? Maybe one day i shall find out the answer, or maybe i will carry it to my grace, i dun noe, but let's see what happens in the future, for now, let's just concentrate on A levels, even closer, Prelims Results, and even closer......Shld i go for movie tml?? I feel so sick......UgHH!

dAniel -- Megas Alexandros

Haha

2005-09-26T23:40:00.000+08:00

So So happy.... Prelims are over!! The results can wait man!! Today went out with my class pple to have lunch. Cartel was as usual up to standard, we all had the Set lunch which only cost 9.50nett. Quite cheap considering the service was quite good. Anyway, XiJie joined as today, it was rather unusual to have him around but he was good company all the same. Ok feel like doing something big, Okay here's the deal... I am going to write a short testimonial of the class people, 3 person a day, Think i start with the sistas, Bel Ivy Jen...

Bel:
Loud, Cheerful girl. Sometimes a bit too loud, abit like what i use to be. Haha, anyway, i think she is a very hardworking girl, really dun see her like so outgoing, she is very efficent with her stuff too... Man, the power of love can sometimes be so great. Really enjoy hanging with her..!

Ivy:
She is very very focused and determined. But that doesn;t make her any less fun to be around with, With her, there is always laughter! In my opinion, i see her as the BEST and i mean the BEST person for someone to set as a role model. Really, she can make CIC so effective and efficient. Not only that, she is in my PW grp, and i think the grp can just die w/o her inputs! Dun be too humble Ivee! I think you deserve all the credit!

Jen:
OMG OMG, dun noe where to begin! I love and hate her at the same time!! She can be the best listener in the whole world, always remembering what you have said to her, but she can also be rather bitchy at time. But i guess that is what i like abt her, Tempermental but Cheerful. I dun regret being her friend man! and Jen sorry for what i put you thru this past 2 years? Bygones??

dANiel -- Think i writing Rol Ron Via next!
The above comments are purely from my heart, none of them is exaggerated....

Sorry guyS...

2005-09-26T01:28:00.000+08:00

Hey sorry for the last post... DUn be too concerned about me... Dying has cross and pass me like in a min and it was gone... Now, i have learn to change myself and just making a small step in self-improvement dun be toO concern with the last post, it was only just a transitional thought process.... To show you hoW true i am, i dedicate this song to all of you....Makes me remember the time where i spent with my NCC frenz watching the replacement...Dun care too much abt my last post once again, it was just my mind rambling....

I Will Survive - Gloria Gaynor

at first i was afraid
i was petrified
Kept thinking i could never live without you by my side
But then i spent so many nights thinking how you did me wrong
And i grew strong and i learned how to get along

And now your back, from outta space
I just walked in to find you here with that sad look upon your face
I should have changed that stupid lock i should have made you leave your key
If i'd have known for just one second you'd be back to bother me

Go on now go walk out the door
Just turn around now cuz your not welcome anymore
Weren't you the one who tried to hurt me with goodbye
Did ya think i'd crumble
Did ya think id lay down and die

Oh no i, i will survive
Oh as long as i know how to love i know ill stay alive
Ive got all my life to live ive got all my love to give
Ill survive i will survive hey hey

(music)

It took all the strength i had not to fall apart
And tried so hard to mend the pieces of my broken heart
And i spent oh so many nights just feeling sorry for myself
I used to cry, but now i hold my head up high

And you see me..somebody new,
Im not that chained up little person still in love with you
And so you felt like dropping in and just expect me to be free
But now im saving all my loving for someone whos loving me

Go on now go walk out the door
Just turn around now cuz your not welcome anymore
Werent you the one who tried to break me with goodbye
Did ya think id crumble did ya think id lay down and die

Oh no not i
i will survive
Oh as long as i know how to love i know ill stay alive
Ive got all my life to live ive got all my love to give
Ill survive..i will survive ohh

Go on now go
Walk out the door just turn around now cuz your not welcome anymore...

dANiel

.....life....

2005-09-24T23:51:00.000+08:00

Recently it has set me thinking... Maybe i shld change my perspective of life...So sick of it... Just wanna go and jump off a buliding... But i am a coward i avoid the pain and try to put on a smile, a laugh to mask my sadness...
I run away from all the pain, this time it is not some ranting... First i shld start with my attitude, now when i look at myself, i am getting sick of it....No wonder people dun like me, dun want me around after talking to me for an hour... Having a plastic surgery is not an option, so i now going to change how i live... No more mugging through day and night ( Sorry guys, i always say i dun mug, but i mug like hell...) I will plan my time casrefully, mugging time shld be fun, not laborious, and definitely not like hell i am experiencing now... this is the first baby step...just hope i can start after Maths S... THIS is not Procrastinating... It just take time to plan out carefully.... Sorry if i wasted more than a miniute of your life....

dAniel -- My life is a beautiful disaster

Disaster

2005-09-23T21:00:00.000+08:00

Kelly Clarkson - Beautiful Disaster

He drowns in his dreams
An exquisite extreme I know
He's as dumb as he seems
And more heaven than a heart could hold
And if I try to save him
My whole world could cave in
It just ain't right
It just ain't right

Oh when I don't know
I don't know what he's after
But he's so beautiful
Such a beautiful disaster
And if I could hold on
Through the tears and the laughter
Would it be beautiful?
Or just a beautiful disaster

His magical myth
As strong as with I believe
A tragedy with
More damage than a soul should see
And do I try to change him
So hard not to blame him
Hold on tight
Hold on tight

Oh cuz I don't know
I don't know what he's after
But he's so beautiful
Such a beautiful disaster
And if I could hold on
Through the tears and the laughter
Would it be beautiful?
Or just a beautiful disaster

I'm longing for love and the logical
But he's only happy hysterical
I'm waiting for some kind of miracle
Waited so long
So long

He's soft to the touch
But afraid at the end he breaks
He's never enough
And still leaves more than I can take
Oh cuz I don't know
I don't know what he's after
But he's so beautiful
Such a beautiful disaster
And if I could hold on
Through the tears and the laughter
Would it be beautiful?
Or just a beautiful disaster

He's beautifu
lSuch a beautiful disaster

2005-09-10T01:40:00.000+08:00

Really stressed out these few days... Cannot cope anymore... VV afraid i flung my studies... wake up always in cold sweat with the image of failing in my head... Going to pray on sunday to calm myself down...GoOd lUcK fEng Quan!!

dAniel -- Good luck guys =)

2005-09-06T16:37:00.000+08:00

Untitled - Simple Plan

I open my eyes
I try to see but I’m blinded by the white light
I can’t remember how
I can’t remember why
I’m lying here tonight
And I can’t stand the pain
And I can’t make it go away
No I can’t stand the pain

How could this happen to me
I made my mistakes
I’ve got no where to run
The night goes on
As I’m fading away
I’m sick of this life
I just wanna scream

How could this happen to me
Everybody’s screaming
I try to make a sound but no one hears me
I’m slipping off the edge
I’m hanging by a thread
I wanna start this over again

So I try to hold onto a time
when nothing mattered
And I can’t explain what happened
And I can’t erase the things that I’ve done
No I can’t

How could this happen to me
I made my mistakes
I’ve got no where to run
The night goes on
As I’m fading away
I’m sick of this life
I just wanna scream

How could this happen to me
I made my mistakes
I’ve got no where to run
The night goes on
As I’m fading awayI’m sick of this life
I just wanna scream
How could this happen to me

2005-09-03T16:16:00.000+08:00

I feel so sick today....Chem...

Wow!!

2005-08-31T13:11:00.000+08:00

Wow! Heard the news today?? Apparently, Creative Technologies have been accorded legal rights to all MP3 players creation... Big news man! That means that with this rights, they can charge legal charges from all other companies producing it, according to the amount they have sold. That even includes iPOd, Apple comapny is in deep shit, according to statistics, they have sold more than 20 million iPod in the US alone.... HAha... So glad i own a Creative MuVo player.... Not affected!!

......

2005-08-31T02:02:00.000+08:00

Just finished mugging for the past 4 hrs...... Physics really suxed... TIme now : 0204 hrs

2005-08-27T01:27:00.000+08:00

Today was realli strange... Mug from 11.45 to 5 den went home and mug for 10 to 12?? 7 hrs mugging ?? Enough??
Never mind about that since i got other things on my mind....

fQ

2005-08-25T00:45:00.000+08:00

Think Econs and Chem can liao... Though haven practise yet.... Erhz... Maths ok i think.... Physics... Just do my best no hope

2005-08-22T15:12:00.000+08:00

"OutStanding!!" "Very Suitable!" "We want YOU!" Die.... That is wat the sergeants at Pasir Ris Camp told me... Sianz... Think i overdid it liaO. I was just doing my normal stuff... 40 push up, 7 pull ups, 243 SBJ, 43 sit ups... and you would think that is average... Guess wat? I aced my physical, pyschomotor skills, medical, interview(I was given 5 for all coloumm, except for Biology), the IQ stuffs, i think i got all right..... SHIT man!..............

dAniel -- Pray when enlistment comes, i want the Pulau Tekong one, not the Pasir Ris Camp one............

2005-08-21T13:56:00.000+08:00

Relegating tto short short post these coming few months... bear with it... Trying to focus but cannot. Have to force myself to study, from 12 midnight to 4 am my usual morning hours... 12 noon to 4 pm my usual day hours, 9 to 12 are my night hours... Upside down biological clock, slept 16 hours in 120 hours span.... That is life 2/15 compared to 1/3 of the best sleeping hours... Somebody save me ....

dAniel -- Mugger Attitude...

Going to Commando Camp tml.... Might be intending to join... Am i stupid or am i STUPID? I think it is the latter....

Fixed

2005-08-18T19:22:00.000+08:00

Fixed the comp.... Phew... Mugging my ass off

National's Bdae...

2005-08-10T00:00:00.000+08:00

8/8 -- National's day eve, never go school, woke up early... Finished mugging my Oraganic Chem. Went for lunch with my frenz. Had Suki Sushi. It was nice! But i didn't eat until i bloated, but i ordered those very ex one, like soft-shell crabs. Later went to the Carnival@Marina, not really a lot of stuff, maybe we went late? When we reached there, almost all the rides were closed and the only thing left for us to see is the Drag Cars that were there. Wanted to go Concert by the Bay on, but Hock and Sk so sianz, cannot stay, and cannot expect me to intrude on Via and Ron mah... Haiz so went home and mug...*BTW, happy Bdae Ronald...

9/8 -- National Day! Woke up early again to mug, so happy! Actually managed to finished the Demand and Supply part and now going to finish the Theory of Production and Cost part! Gonna start on Market Structure soon. Anyway, this evening, went down to Tampines with my family to celebrate National dAY! Really not so exciting, but the fireworks was nice. The ShowZone was nice too. Got tanks to look at! Really love the military life! Watched the NDP on the big screen, heard got PDS and some of them was NCC... But it was such a disappointment... even with the Rotation and Flying fish, the music killed it all, and the NCC was woring some idotiv costumes!.... ARHHZ! Disgraceful to the Pioneer Batch man.... All in All the National Day this year in my opinion was not that extravgant as they put it... Anyway, Happy 40 birthday S'pore and hope you have many more...

dANiel -- Singaporeans -- Made in Singapore....

sIAnz

2005-08-07T00:36:00.000+08:00

Haiz... Kenna Virus my comp wiped clean....

BreaKdown...

2005-08-02T00:49:00.000+08:00

Sort of had an emotional breakdown today... Said things i shouldn't had said, did things that i shouldn;t have done.... Sorry Jen... Sorry Ronald.... I dun noe why but when i saw the wallet back on my table, i just sort of broke?? Dun noe why... Stressed out?? Never really had such mood swings before... I tried stopping the tears.... It just wun stop... I feel so damn wussy, sissy as jen has put it... Sorry if i did scared anyone... My bad..

On a happier note, i sort of know where i heading for... My life plan, I want to serve.... SINGAPORE! Either as a NS men or as a Public Sector Worker... a civil servent, it will be cool if i can be in the MCYS...

dAniel -- Stressed out

piSsed off

2005-07-29T23:45:00.000+08:00

Damn, S'poreans are damn inconsiderate.... Took the feeder bus home from interchange, sat down at the end of the bus, seats were filled up quickly, Then a pregnant woman came in, and those bastards and bitches have the audacity to just stare at her and dun stand up. Pissed man, so i took the initiative to give up my seat. That was not the end, 2 fu*king bitches stood near the exit, refuse to budge and cause the front to be jammed, the rear where i was standing was almost empty.... I told the bitches off and ask them to shift, they gave me the "jiao bin" and i fu*king shouted at them to shift again, they finally shifted. Some other passengers also supported me.... Feel so pissed that sIngaporeans esp. young people are so damn inconsiderate... Degardation of moral values...

dAniel -- Move your ass, Bitches!

Slack

2005-07-26T00:34:00.000+08:00

Veri slack these few days.... Must get inertia... Inertia Drifitng...

Clarify things

2005-07-22T00:11:00.000+08:00

Hey wanna clarify the misunderstanding that has been circulating around me these few years... Contrary to popular belief, i am NOT a MUGGER! Really guys, u all have to believe me man. I mug for a reason, i have no choice. Not because i want to get good grades and show off, but because iwant to relieve my family finacial status.... Anyway, yah no scholarships, no uni for me.... So... please dun call me a mugger anymore, i will feel demoralized and would seriously hurt my feelings if you all repeatedly say that....
On the lighter side of things, I sort out the seating arrangements for SDD05!! Yah, big headache man, i dun dare to anyhow place people, but people keep changing their mind and stuffs! But think Aessertive Leadership is still my style, put down my leg and split the people up.... Okay here goes Table #1 - MingXi XiJie XianWei BenT Razak Swee JH WeiXian Tony Hock...
Table #2 - Damien Rol Bel Ron Via Ivy Jen Cheryl BenL fQ! Okay time to sleep.... Nitez!

dAniel --

....

2005-07-15T16:37:00.000+08:00

End of the week.... Lousy Results.... Operandi "Muggerification" commencing...

Olympic

2005-07-07T18:25:00.000+08:00

So the 117th IOC is over, think Spore did a great job! Happy tat London won, but still feel that Paris deserved the win.... Anyway heard today got bombing in LOndon, maybe it is the french revenge??

dANiel --

Movie Reviews!!

2005-07-01T23:45:00.000+08:00

Current Standing: 1 down, Inifinity to go.

I am talking about movies here, in case you all dun get it. <> was damn nice, really love the drifting effect of the whole thing, think i will got start the comic collection! Edison was cool, ok... Jay Chou acting sux, but love the part where he says "Wang Ba Dan", my fav actor was Shawn Yue, think he is so manly and cool! Haha! First time, i like the supporting actor more than the main one!
Ok so after Initial D, i still wanna watch Batman Begins, War of the Worlds, A lot like Love, Fantastic 4, Mind Hunter, Sin City, Stealth, Haiz.... So much to watch.
Btw, me dad ordered Harry Potter for me! Surprise Suprise...!!

dAniel -- Initial D

Over...

2005-06-30T21:15:00.000+08:00

Mommy! Its Over!! Exam is over.... Over the moon, watched Initial D gonna buy the comic man so good the movie!!

dAniel -- Hey it starts with D!!

Alive...

2005-06-24T01:04:00.000+08:00

Good Friend's Dad just passed away.... Went to the funeral, she seem okay... Dun wanna probe too much, just chatted like old friends too.. lAugh a bit... Told her to take care... Life is short guys... enjoy it...

dAniel -- I look at the sunrise everyday to know that i am alive...

Anyone want to come close to me?

2005-06-21T01:26:00.000+08:00

You are a maniac
killer.
It doesn't matter who they are and what they
have or haven't done. You still want to kill
them. And for a simple reason only; it's fun.
Seeing people in pain is like ecstasy. Maybe
you have some sort of mental problems or you
are this way because of previous deep scars,
only you know. But now you are sadistic and
maybe you only like to see a special group of
people be in pain (e.g. preps). However you are
not the most social person in the bunch and
people think you are weird. That bothers you
somewhat but atleast you can entertain yourself
with daydreaming about killing them. After all,
they have no idea what's coming.

Main weapon: Explosives and torture
equpiment
Quote: "Insanity: a perfect
rational adjustment to an insane world" -
R.D. Lang
Facial expression: Wicked smile

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2005-06-20T01:40:00.000+08:00

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Studyin... again

2005-06-19T01:00:00.000+08:00

Just finished Chemistry... VV vague... finished in 2 days leh... Hey guys ask u all, morning wake up at 10... Mug till 12... again at 1 to 3 den 4 to 6 den 9 to 1(while watching tV) is it effective or enough??

dAniel -- Scared like hell.... ECONS!

Studying...

2005-06-17T23:52:00.000+08:00

Eh... Finish Maths and Physics Revision ... Think gonna finish Chem tml den can start on the toughest... Econs...

dAniel -- Sniff Sniff...Mugging ...

HAP

2005-06-16T21:18:00.000+08:00

Finally, HAP has ended, so glad so sad... Mixed Feelings.... Visited Prisons, SCDF, SPF.... So happy! So sad for the prisoners and their familes.... Crying in my heart.... I will never forget you guys man! Martin, Allan, Darren, Ding Wen, Chin Lin, Shu Ying, Evelyn, Uy Sim, Xin Li, MeiQi, Wei Sheng. Ronnie and Jeremy!

dAniel --- HAP(Dhanabalan, SPF, SCDF, SPS)

SPF

2005-06-10T00:53:00.000+08:00

Went to SPF from Mon to Wed. Quite classified stuffs! So cannot tell you much... Anyway, tell u some interesting stuffs.! Remember "CrimeWatch" the host, Koh Wei Keong, he is in charge of scholarship board! Talk to him for at least an hour, so exciting....eh.... i mean so informative and knowlegeable! Btw, gals, go get a STAR team guy, their bods HOT HOT HOT! Btw CID quite boring leh, nothing much to see also. Eww!

Anyway Hot guys fill up PolicE Posts. Maybe i shld be one??

dAniel -- Down Sir! Down Sir!